I can think of many times in my life that I was a nervous wreck. I have always been a bit of a worry-wart, so these nervous times are pretty commonplace…from job interviews, to speeches, to evaluations while I was teaching, to my own wedding! The times when I have been most nervous, however, have been times when I was completely out of control of my kids’ well being. When I went to the hospital with contractions to have Captain Fussybuckets began the most nervous I have ever been, I believe. Being my first time, I didn’t know what to expect, even though I had done a ton of reading and we even went to childbirth class, I truly had no idea. When we got to the hospital, a day after my due date, they were about to send me home when they decided to monitor his heartrate a bit. After doing so, they discovered that his heartrate wasn’t where it should be. After I had a contraction, it took too long to get his heartrate back to normal, so they decided then to induce in the morning. All throughout my labor, we had a bunch of scary moments. The nurse couldn’t find the heartbeat, his heartbeat was extremely low, my epidural wasn’t working correctly, and finally, many hours later, the Captain was born with the cord wrapped tightly around his neck three times. The doctor clamped the umbilical cord to cut it and it burst, spraying blood all over my hubby. Of course, we had NO clue what was going on and even though the doctor was calm and collected, we were worried and super nervous. Add in the fact that Captain Fussybuckets didn’t cry for what felt like FOR-ever, THIS was the most nervous I have ever been in my entire life. Not until we heard him cry and then I got to hold my sweet baby did I feel relief. But, I suppose moms and dads never get real relief from those nervous moments. There have been many times we have worried about our sons and they’ve done things to make us very nervous, but we have learned to just have faith that everything will be okay. It definitely doesn’t get easier and I’m sure it never will!
What has been your most nervous moment?