Do I look before I leap? OH yes. And when there is a lot of time to look before leaping, I overlook! My mom used to tell me that I was going to develop an ulcer from worrying too much. I was so deathly afraid of tornadoes when I was a child, that if I even heard the words “tornado watch” on TV, (which trust me, that was an every day occurrence in Texas!) I would freak out and make myself sick. “what if it hits our house?” or “what if we can’t get under cover?” or “what if it strikes when we are on the way to the cellar?” were the questions racing through my head, when it might not even be cloudy yet!
I’d like to think that I’ve toned it down a bit now that I’m 30. (oh yes, today is my 30th birthday!) haha! I am still afraid of tornadoes but I don’t make myself sick about it. Likewise, when having to make a decision or taking a leap of faith in life, I’ll admit, it’s really hard to do without asking all of the “why” questions. While I prefer having ample time to think things out, I think my dear husband has learned that it’s probably best to give me only a few hours rather than a few days or weeks because I will overanalyze everything to death.
It’s funny, or maybe not so funny, but I’m finding that the Captain is a lot like me in this respect. Maybe it’s being 3. Hopefully it’s just being 3. We’ve figured out that he does a lot better with situations when you say “get ready, we’re going to Grandma’s house” than telling him three days in advance “Son, this weekend we’re going to Grandma’s house.” He wants to know every detail, when we’re leaving, what he’s going to wear, what we’re going to do, if he’s going to see So and So, the list just goes on and on and it’s mind numbing.
Mom and Dad, I’m sorry for you that I was like this! haha! And I’m sorry I still am like this! I do believe that a lot of the decisions I’ve made have been made well because I didn’t just leap into things. While I knew that my husband was “the one” for me, we waited until we both had graduated college to get married. While I knew I wanted to be a mommy, we waited a couple of years to begin our family. When considering our future, we spent a lot of time thinking and praying about certain jobs and situations to see if they were right for us. Some things we decided not to do, like move too far away from our families, and I believe that leaping with caution in those instances in good. It’s good to think things out, just trying not to overthink them is where I struggle!
This will never, ever be me: